Thank you and Bless You 💙

Last week I went to wash my hands the soap was empty.

In the shower the conditioner, empty.

I went to the pantry for dog food for Chloe, nothing.

I go to make tea and it’s the last of it.

Each and everything I was doing, everywhere I was going, it all came up empty.

That’s what I felt like.

Empty.

Lacking.

Without.

Chloe has been needing a nail trim. I called to make an appointment where I was told, She is due for her rabies vaccine, in order to do that she needs her yearly wellness exam.

She told me the total and me at the time with about $50 dollars in my bank account had an absolute meltdown.

I started spiraling, crying and going into a full blown panic. I can barely take care of myself, now I can’t take care of Chloe??

I started praying and talking to God, asking what do I do? I’m absolutely depleted, mind, body and soul.

When the tears stopped flowing, I was able to catch my breath. I received a clear answer,

Ask for what you need AND allow yourself to receive it, be brave, be vulnerable.

I’ve spent the majority of my 39 years here on Earth pouring love, kindness and joy into other people.

It was often a foreign thing to me to actual receive that from another because I honestly didn’t know how to receive it.

I didn’t know how to ask for help? Ask for support? I could do that without being screamed at, belittled or argued with?

There are people out there who help without an ulterior motive or hidden strings?? 😳

It took me a long time to know, to understand, to remember that I am worthy, I am enough.

I do not have to jump through hoops, climb mountains, hold onto peoples garbage, projections or allow people to take advantage of my kindness to receive love.

It’s been an important lesson I’ve learned over and over again. I am worthy, lovable and enough As Is. I do not have to prove my worth or value to anyone.

I know who I am.

Sometimes I forget.

We ALL do.

Moments of doubts, triggers, thoughts creep in.

Repeat after me,

I am worthy.

I am lovable.

I am safe to be vulnerable.

It is safe to ask for what I need.

It is safe for me to receive help and support.

I am enough.

We all know how beautiful it is to give to others and equally there is the importance of receiving!

Saying we are open to receive and actually allowing ourselves to receive without guilt, shame or fear, it’s been a lesson and deep trigger for me on repeat 🙃🤩💙✅🌈

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers 💙🙏🏻🌹 I have been crying so much reading your comments, I got a little overwhelmed with all of the love and I didn’t have it In me to respond to each comment 💙💙💙

Thank you to everyone who has generously donated 🙏🏻 With your support I was actually able to start filling up my cup again, buy some soap 😅 and Chloe will be headed to the vet 💙🫶🌹🕊️

I feel immense gratitude for this community and I look forward to seeing what the future holds all while doing my best to be here in this present moment 🌹🌹🌹

I know there is a lot of big changes happening, that will happen in each one of our lives and we all have the same choice in every moment,

Am I choosing love or fear? 🕊️

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Thank you and bless you 🪷

Gretchen Olivia